Spiral

I found this in my purse today. I wrote it several months ago, but it is a pretty good description of how I'm feeling today: hopeless and helpless.

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Spiral

As if I'm the first
to compare life
to a downward spiral
How clever

But when it's your life
those words are best
to describe
the pain, sometimes

Besides, like I have
the energy
or desire
to come up with something original

It's funny how life
can be so hard
some days
Others, it's fine, even good

Not funny "ha-ha"
but funny "ouch"
Smiling is too hard
don't even want to try

I know I'm not the first
my problems aren't worse
than any others
Not even close, really

But it still hurts
and life is still hard
and I'm not pretending anymore
At least not today

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P.S. Have no fear: I'm sure tomorrow will be better (and normal!).